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Chapter 3

Responsibilities

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The tube lights in the CQST corridor hummed a little flat. Ananya stood outside Professor Mehta's office with her data pressed against her chest and knocked. The knock came out smaller than she intended.

"Come in, Ananya."

He went on typing for a while, silver hair catching the window, before he looked up.

"Sir, thank you for seeing me." Five years of these meetings had taught her voice to steady itself. "I know the proposal I sent yesterday is unconventional."

"Unconventional." He took off his glasses. "Dr. Nayagiri, you are asking for triple the standard lab hours and the funded group's lasers, on the strength of a result that—" his finger found the plot on her top sheet "—frankly, breaks physics."

"That's why I'm here, sir." She laid the fringes out on his desk. "The Ramsey contrast comes back to one before the echo pulse fires. Last two hundred shots, averaged. Every night this week."

"Before the pulse." He said it the way you repeat a child's word for a thing. "Then your trigger is late. Your own log says timing fault. You wrote it yourself."

"I wrote it at midnight. Then I checked the AWG trigger, and it wasn't late." She pulled out another graph. Her fingers left damp marks on the paper. "Let me run it again, sir. With witnesses. Full departmental oversight."

"With what resources?" He had already turned to the budget spreadsheet on his monitor, the universal gesture of a man who had decided before she knocked. "We're over-allocated. The particle group needs—"

"The particle group hasn't published in two years!" It was out before she could calculate its trajectory.

He didn't answer that. On the desk between them, half under his diary, lay a printed remittance advice with a blue Quantace Q in its footer. Sunrise Scholars Foundation, a Quantace Health initiative. Consultancy: Prof. R. K. Mehta. ₹40,00,000. Credited. The date on it was a fortnight old. She read it upside down, because she had been reading his desk upside down for five years. Mehta saw her looking and moved his coffee cup onto the slip.

"Sir, I've given this department five years. Two grants. Twelve papers."

"And we value them." He sighed. "But an atom that rephases before you've asked it to? 'Revival unexplained,' your log calls it. Dr. Nayagiri, science moves in careful, methodical steps. Not quantum—" he let it hang "—leaps." He smiled at his own joke, and it hit her low. "Come back with reproducible results on certified equipment."

"Equipment we don't have, sir. Because of the budget."

He had put his glasses back on.

"I understand," she said. "Thank you for your time."

She swept the papers into her bag. Down the corridor, down the stairs, out past the parking, where the dry neem leaves went round and round in the wind as if they had somewhere to be.

Across the city, on the forty-third floor of PJS Tower, the conference room looked down on Gachibowli's cranes swinging slow arcs over half-finished campuses. Vikram had been at the presentation end since six, rehearsing numbers.

His boss, Raghav, Head of Security Operations, took the head of the table in a navy suit, with the controlled ease of a man who had learned to manage upward before he learned to manage anything else. To his right Meera Malhotra, Director of AI Research, settled in without greeting anyone and read her tablet the way a surgeon reads an X-ray. At the far end two junior managers from Network Security, Karthik and Deepak, hunched over matching lanyards.

Vikram stood and adjusted his tie, a tell he had never got rid of. The projector came up blue.

"Good morning. Over the past week we've had a coordinated series of attacks, adaptive malware going after our AI systems. Karthik, network analysis?"

Karthik typed. Traffic bloomed on the wall: anomaly clusters, something testing the perimeter like fingers on a lock.

"They're not brute-forcing. They probe, they adapt in real time." Next slide. "Primary targets: Quantum Aegis, Project Helios, Indra Commsat, Project P, Biotech." He read the names flat, words in a language he didn't speak.

"Numbers, Vikram," said Malhotra.

"Thirty percent rise in sophisticated breach attempts this quarter. The defence model my team shipped last month blocked 97.8 percent. The other 2.2 we caught by hand, on sixteen-hour rotations, for nine days."

Nobody congratulated him on the 97.8. He had rewritten the false-positive logic at two in the morning with his mother's prescription renewal glowing on his phone beside the keyboard.

Raghav nodded at the slide as if it had been his idea. "Good. Tidy it for the board. The board doesn't read acronyms, Vikram. The board reads colours."

Vikram said yes sir, and nothing else, because it was June and there were MRI bills on his phone.

"Let's take five," Raghav said.

Chairs scraped back. At the coffee, Deepak clapped Karthik on the shoulder.

"Reyy, your soul was leaving your body in there," Deepak muttered. "I was composing your eulogy."

"What would you even say?"

"Here lies Karthik. He died as he lived — one slide behind."

Karthik punched his arm and couldn't keep the grin off. Raghav stood at the window with his coffee.

Vikram crossed to the window.

"Sir, one minute? The team's done nine days of sixteen-hour shifts. I'd put in for a revision in March, for all of SecInt and for me. Twelve percent. The market for this work has moved—"

"Ah, Vikram." Raghav's smile arrived on schedule, warm as company policy. "I saw the request. It went up with my recommendation. It came back."

"Came back how, sir?"

"Frozen. Band revisions are held this quarter, for the whole of CySec. Nothing I can do." He drank his coffee. "Get me the clean deck by four, and ask me again in July."

July. Another quarter of rotations, the Banjara Hills neurologist every three weeks, the MRI with contrast the scheme didn't cover. He had done the sum at two in the morning more than once. It came out at six months, maybe eight.

"Yes, sir," Vikram said.

In the lift, alone, his reflection in the steel doors stopped smiling.

He typed: Raise frozen. Ask again in July, he says. Sorry akka. How did Mehta go?

He watched the dots come and go for a long time. Then: No.

Tarnaka at seven smelled of tempering mustard seeds from four kitchens at once. Ananya had gone straight to her room and shut the door, which in their house was louder than shouting.

Vikram sat at the dining table with his laptop and did not open the clean deck.

He opened the Quantace careers portal instead, the internal one, where staff could refer people. He had looked at it in May and closed it. Tonight the first posting under Quantum Research was new, three days old: Senior Research Scientist. Single-atom and trapped-neutral platforms. Coherence anomalies, unconventional rephasing. Candidates with independent rig-building experience preferred.

It might have been written from her lab log. For one second the back of his neck went cold. Then he decided it was luck, because he needed it to be luck.

Her CV was on the CQST faculty page, a year out of date. He fixed the dates. Her twelve papers he pasted from Google Scholar, the arXiv one first. The cover letter took him an hour and a half. He wrote it the way she talked when she forgot to be careful: short sentences, one joke she would have cut, the word rig where anyone else would say apparatus. He deleted the joke. Then he put it back.

Beside the laptop lay the colony register where Amma had left it mid-column, the maintenance dues ticked down the page in her square hand as far as C-14, where she had written Rao, third reminder and underlined it twice.

From the pūjā room his mother's voice ran on low, the evening verses, the tablets keeping it soft. She came out with the lamp in her hand and stopped behind his chair and looked at the screen as if she could read it from there.

"Your Ammamma would say there are no coincidences," she said. "Only patterns we're not ready to see yet."

He shut the laptop halfway, the way he had at fourteen. "Amma. Don't tell her."

She was already walking back with the lamp, and he could not tell whether she had heard him, or whether she had been talking to him at all.

The form wanted a signature. He had her signature on the consent papers from the hospital in June, scanned on his phone. He traced it on the trackpad four times until it would pass for hers. At 9:52 he pressed Submit, and the portal said Thank you. Referral recorded, and below that, Referring employee: V. Nayagiri, CySec, which meant there would be a bonus if she was hired, which he had not known, and which made him feel worse.

He went into the kitchen and put the leftover rice on to warm, because a person had to do something with his hands.

Krishna heard her door open at a quarter past ten, and her feet go past the kitchen and stop at his.

"Nanna?" A knock. "Nanna?"

"Coming ra, one minute." He wheeled back from the tuition papers and opened the door.

She sat on the floor against his bed, as she had at nine, and told him about Mehta in four sentences, the way she reported a failed run. He shifted in the chair to ease the phantom ache in his legs and found nothing to say that would help.

She pulled a spiral notebook off his lowest shelf, a Magadheera sticker half peeled off its cover. Her own, at fifteen: an attempt to map laghu and guru, short and long, onto nested functions. She had crossed the page out with one furious line and written beside it:

Doesn't converge. Pattern suggests solution but function never terminates.

She laughed, not nicely. "Fourteen years, Nanna. Same note."

"Physics is just nature's poetry," he said, because he had said it to her at twelve and it had worked then.

"Poetry doesn't need a laser."

He had been eighteen once, with less than she had.

In the orphanage in Nellore I studied under street lights after scrubbing pots that would never be mine. Sister Maria slipped me physics books wrapped in newspaper. All India Rank 41 was escape velocity.

First day at IIT Kanpur: a borrowed shirt starched stiff as my spine, a front-row seat.

That's when she walked in, like she was going to be the one teaching today. Everyone knew her: daughter of Professor Sharma, the mechanical engineering legend.

Nobody knew me.

Until the day Professor Gupta's heat transfer calculation went wrong on the board, and my hand went up before my brain could stop it. "Sir, the boundary conditions..." Then I remembered who I was, and stammered an apology.

"He's right." She was already at the board, fixing the second line. Afterwards, on the steps, she said, "Nice catch. I'm Lakshmi."

"Krishna," I managed.

Two weeks later we reached for the same book in the library, the last copy.

"Mine's due tomorrow," she said. "Sorry for your loss."

"We're both losing energy standing here, arguing. Conservation of energy suggests we share the book," I said, "over chai?"

She laughed. "Did you just use thermodynamics to ask me out?"

"Is it working?"

"Depends. Are you accounting for entropy?"

A month later, at the tea stall, her hand found mine under the bench. I was wearing the borrowed shirt. I had given it back twice and its owner had stopped asking.

But meeting her parents at their house in Kanpur rewrote all known equations. Mr. Sharma had seen dozens of students like me. It was her mother who changed everything.

In their home's library, among ancient texts and modern journals, Mrs. Rajeshwari showed me a Sri Yantra diagram beside a quantum field equation. "What do you see?" she asked.

"Patterns," I answered honestly. "Different languages describing the same truth."

"And what truth do you see in my daughter?"

"That some forces can't be explained by science alone."

She smiled. "Reality is more fluid than your mechanics suggests," she said. "Watch for patterns. Remember to protect, when the patterns start watching back."

My hands traced what looked like a force diagram. "These yantras, they're showing mechanical principles. This here," I pointed to one pattern, "it's like a stress distribution model."

"Ah, the mechanical engineer speaks." Mr. Sharma looked at his wife. "Tell me, Krishna, what does your thermodynamics say about closed systems?"

"Energy can neither be created nor destroyed," I said. "But this is showing energy transfer across boundaries that shouldn't exist."

"Energy never dies, it transforms," she recited. "Your thermodynamics and this yantra vidya, they're describing the same forces."

"Or at least, that's what Rajeshwari's research is trying to prove," Mr. Sharma said.

When he looked up, Annu was at the door with the notebook under her arm, sniffing. "Is he burning the rice?"

"He's warming it," Krishna said. "Very thoroughly."

She went. He left his door open a hand's width, and told himself it was for the air.

The rice had caught on the bottom. Vikram was scraping it with the fish-shaped spoon when she came into the kitchen, and his laptop was open on the dining table behind her, because he had forgotten to shut it all the way.

Ananya read the screen standing up. Referral recorded. Her name. Her twelve papers, the arXiv one first. A cover letter she read in her own voice, nearly. Her signature at the bottom, which she had never put there.

"Akka," he said. "Before you— okay. Biryani joke. It's a good one. Why did the Hyderabadi qubit refuse to collapse?"

"Don't."

"Because it was still thinking about—"

"Vicky, don't." She turned the laptop round on the table so that the screen faced him, like evidence. "You signed my name."

"I traced it. It's different."

"It's forgery. They put people in jail for it. They also put people out of jobs, which is what happens to me when Mehta hears I've applied to a company while I'm on his DST grant."

"What grant? He said no. You texted me no." He put the spoon down. "You were going to email him again. Tomorrow you'd draft it, Friday you'd send it, and next month he'd reply saying come back with certified equipment. I know, because that's what he said in March."

"So you decided for me."

"Somebody had to decide something in this house before the neurologist's bill did." He heard his own voice go up and couldn't stop it. "Raghav froze my raise today. Ask again in July. You know what July is? July is the MRI with contrast. July is Nanna taking two more tuitions in that chair with his shoulders like that."

"Then you should have told me. You don't get to—" She stopped, because Nanna's door was open a hand's width and the house was very small. She dropped to a whisper, which was worse. "Your company pays Mehta forty lakh to consult, did you know that? I saw the slip on his desk. Forty lakh, for a man who hasn't published since 2019, and he can't find me one laser. And now you want me to go and work for them."

"I want you to get paid."

"I want to finish what I started."

"You started it five years ago, Akka. It's not finishing. It's just going on."

That landed somewhere he had not aimed. She picked up the notebook she had brought in from Nanna's room, the Magadheera one, and held it against her chest the way she had held her data outside Mehta's door that morning.

"Withdraw it," she said.

"No."

"Vikram. Withdraw it, or I will."

"Then you do it. With your own signature." He took the pan off the gas. "Go on. It's right there."

Neither of them moved towards the laptop. In the pūjā room Amma had stopped chanting, and the quiet in the hall was the listening kind.

Ananya's phone buzzed in her hand. She looked down at it because it was something to look at that was not her brother.

From: careers@quantace.com Subject: Application received – Senior Research Scientist (Quantum Research) Dear Dr. Nayagiri, thank you for your application. Our panel would like to meet you next week. Please confirm a slot below.